B and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad (food) Day!

     Yeah... today has been a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day for food consumption. I have eaten far more homemade chocolate chip and toffee cookies than I care to share, or should have even thought about LOOKING at, let alone CONSUMING. sigh. Cookies, and sponge cake, and multiple cups of coffee with creamer... yikes. I'm not even going to put totals in my food logger because I know it would just scream, "HORRIBLE!" (Okay, not really. It would just show my overage in a bright red box, but you know...)

     I'm feeling really down about all this right now. I feel incredibly silly/stupid for having allowed myself to "go crazy" like this. And the day before the initial weigh-ins for the Biggest Loser competition at my work! SERIOUSLY SELF?! *facepalm*

     To try and put a positive spin on it, I have told myself that having a (slightly) higher starting weight for the competition could lead to a (slightly) more impressive finish... if, as a friend of mine said to me today, I can "get my ass in gear!". That last part is proving difficult psychologically today. I keep thinking to myself that I've already blown the competition with today and I shouldn't even try.

    Yeah - I've told that part to SHUT THE FRONT DOOR! I know I haven't blown the competition. I know that I can just "start over", right now, right this very millisecond even. But I also know that now I am going to have to work just that much harder to achieve my goal for this competition. But that's alright. I'm going to put on my proverbial blinders and just "compete" with myself. I can do this, I know I can. And I'm going to blow that nay-saying part of my crazy girl brain right out of the friggin water!

              Yeah, that's the ticket! PEW PEW PEW SILLY SELF!

And So it Begins... Again!

     That's right, folks! My work is graciously holding another Biggest Loser competition this year, and I am participating. This should (hopefully) be my last year as I plan to reach my long-term goal by mid-May 2013.

     Last Wednesday was a weigh-in day and I'd dropped another 2 pounds. That made 46 total since last September (at the first competition). I currently reside at 221. This Wednesday is the initial weigh-in/assessment for the competition. I'm hoping to be down at least 1 more pound. My goal for the competition - which is lofty but doable - is to lose 40 pounds. It goes from September 1 to December 29th. Weigh-ins every Wednesday, and they're offering a special group fitness class every Saturday. Due to my working weekends again, I won't be able to go to every one of those, but I have my own schedule done up. It's going to be intense, but I really want to win this year!

     I took the last couple weeks off of exercise. The first week was by accident (kept over sleeping) and then last week because it felt good to have a break. I think I may have been a bit burned out and didn't realize it until I was resting. But this week I am back at it. Had my last Monday morning Zumba class today (will be attending an evening class during the school year so I can take the kids to school with my husband). Tomorrow lifting, and Wednesday Spin in the AM. Then the initial weigh-in. Hopefully my break wasn't too detrimental.

     Super excited! Hopefully I can keep this energy up for the next 4 months!